THE CRUSADE

How long is it possible for a charged body to remain charged in an uncharged ambience? How long can something hold its aroma in a place which is continuously draining it? How long is it possible to swim against the water current? How long is it possible to climb uphill? After a brief gallant show of guts and determination, finally a thought comes in the mind “I can’t do it anymore. Let it go!” It is here that our 100% terminates. And we start going with the current spontaneously. But spontaneous processes lead to the increase in disorderedness of the system.

We humans are basically lazy, very lazy. And some of us are extraordinary in this. They love pain, darkness, gloominess. (One thing did you ever realize, why do people like sunset more than sunrise? Think over it). Why would anyone love pain? Think deep. The reason is simple. To be positive (uphill) requires a lot of energy whereas to be negative requires none (downhill). Let me explain with an example by personifying someone. ‘X’ is say a boy. He is fat. Daily he looks into the mirror and sees those extra pounds here and there, and then he feels the bile rising in his throat. But still he finds hundreds of reasons to eclipse his ‘laziness to take responsibility’ (take control of the steering of his life) to correct that or even make an attempt (whole- hearted one). He lives gloomily over the silliest and stupidest of problems. He magnifies them and may be because he wants care and affection, he shows himself bruised by life. See the cleverness of the mind; first it convinces X of the illusion because it knows that if the person himself is not convinced he cannot convince the world around him. He attempts it. But people around are busy crying theirs. He amplifies his intensities. Now his actions scream, “I am hurt, I am bruised by life. Adore me, love me”. Finally people start noticing and out of pity show some sympathy which he mistakes for affection. He is happy with it. He starts saying in a tone of infinite experience, “Life is an acid-test; life is not a bed of roses; life is an ever-lasting struggle…..and so on”. If given power he might even put out the sun saying the sunlight hurts the eyes too much. He speaks often about the glory of his past and how suffocating his present is. He speaks of his dead wishes and more about the power and role of Fate is making them dead. He speaks about his compulsions and restrictions. His ‘things I don’t-like’ list is ever ready. He is exceptionally clear about what he doesn’t want in life. But he is blank (or takes hell lot of time to say) when asked about the things he wants in life. You may often hear him saying “I can’t do this” or “I can do this but I don’t want to do this” (of course here I am talking about good habits and hobbies). These kinds of people are energy drainers. They are hopeless and will be hopeless forever. Next time you see someone like this around, do yourself a favor; kick him away from your life. Else he is going to drain your hopes and energy and drown you in darkness, subconsciously.

Life is beautiful. If you doubt the statement, go and talk to someone who is on deathbed especially by any injury or disease. Look in their eyes and you will know the importance of life. Talk to someone who is handicapped, you will realize how lucky you are and how you took your life for granted so far. Speaking of problems I will say these are real problems like ‘parents on the verge of divorce, loss of a close one like a family member, family financial problems, bad family relationships etc’. In these cases you need a hug by close ones. Other problems are not big enough to upset you that much. Live your life. Fulfill your desires because who knows will there be a tomorrow or not.

So the answer to the initial set of questions (beginning of this post) is infinity. Yeah it is possible till you breathe your last breath, because it is expression of an attitude and attitude don’t get tired. Whenever you get tired take a break but don’t quit. Because if you quit you lose this battle and ultimately the crusade of your life.